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Decolonize
To Decolonize for Eva means to be in right relationship
What does it mean to decolonize my life?
Matur Suksma for landing here.
This page is a living prayer—an offering of where I’m at in the ongoing journey of decolonising my life. It is not a finished arrival, but a commitment to unlearning, remembering, and returning to ways of being that honour life in its interconnected wholeness.
At its heart, decolonising your life means:
1. Unlearning internalized systems of domination
Recognising how colonial mindsets (like white supremacy, patriarchy, capitalism, extractivism) have shaped the way you relate to yourself, others, land, and time.
Questioning inherited beliefs about productivity, worth, beauty, success, and power.
2. Reclaiming indigenous, ancestral, and embodied ways of knowing
Remembering the wisdom in your lineage—through food, language, ceremony, land connection, and relational values.
Valuing oral traditions, intuition, slowness, and community care over Western ideals of speed, individualism, and linear progress.
3. Centering relationship over extraction
Moving from “What can I take?” to “How can I be in right relation?”—with land, people, resources, and time.
Honouring reciprocity, consent, and mutual thriving instead of exploitative or performative exchanges.
4. Restoring your body and rhythms
Trusting your cyclical nature (especially as a woman or femme body) and resisting pressure to be in constant output.
Letting your body, rest, and feeling states guide your pace and choices—not colonial timelines or capitalist productivity standards.
5. Being in solidarity with collective liberation
Not just a personal practice—it’s also about dismantling the conditions that oppress others.
Supporting land back movements, cultural preservation, reparations, and healing justice.
A Personal Reckoning
To decolonise is to begin asking:
What systems and beliefs have I inherited that no longer honour the sacredness of life?
What has been imposed upon my body, my rhythm, my spirit—often unconsciously—and how can I begin to compost that conditioning?
As someone raised between cultures, I’ve long walked the edge between modern Western systems and Indigenous ways of knowing. I’ve experienced firsthand the tension between acceleration and stillness, performance and presence, disconnection and deep listening.
I am not decolonising my life alone. This journey is inspired, guided, and held by the wisdom of Indigenous Elders, Balian healers, regenerative doctors like Zach Bush MD, spiritual-scientists like Tjok Gde Kerthyasa, and psychotherapists and deep seated astrologers like Chris Skidmore, who each, in their own way, remind me:
“We do not heal in isolation. We heal in relationship—with the land, with our ancestors, with one another, and with Spirit.”
What Does It Mean to Decolonise?
Decolonising my life means…
Restoring right relationship with the land, understanding that nature is not a resource, but a relative.
Honouring cyclical living—listening to my womb, my body, the seasons, and resisting the constant drive to be in output.
Letting go of perfectionism, urgency, and the deeply ingrained need to prove my worth through productivity.
Prioritising community care over individualism, extraction, or competition.
Reweaving connection to ceremony, beauty, and Earth-honouring traditions—especially those carried in the bloodlines of my Balinese and Canadian (Eastern European) ancestors.
Returning to the intelligence of the body. As Zach Bush MD shares, true regeneration begins with trusting the body’s innate capacity to restore balance when it is in connection—with soil, with microbes, with biology, with diversity, with emotion, with spirit.
The Role of Ancestry and Spirit
The Balinese healer and health scientist Tjok Gde Kerthyasa speaks often of healing as a return to harmony. His work—infused with both science and soul—reminds me that much of our suffering stems from a loss of rhythm with nature’s intelligence.
Similarly, Chris Skidmore’s invitations to live “on the soul’s terms” have helped me honour the liminal spaces of grief, longing, and renewal—not as problems to fix, but as sacred thresholds. His psychotherapy, woven with his astrological background, invites a kind of listening that decolonizes even our concept of time—shifting from mechanical forward-movement to mythic cycles of death and rebirth.
Through my work with Chris, I found that astrology becomes the elder for those of us who no longer have living bloodline elders to sit with. The planets and stars begin to speak in the way a wise grandfather by the fire or a farmer on ancestral land might—delivering messages of soul, timing, and purpose in a way that is both cosmic and deeply personal.
This is especially true through the lens of Evolutionary Astrology, which has become a deeply supportive companion on my path. Pioneers like Jeffrey Wolf Green and Steven Forrest remind us that the soul carries memory—across lifetimes, through wounds, and into the heart of why we’re here. Evolutionary Astrology doesn’t flatten us into fate—it invites us into responsibility. It shows us where we are being called to grow, release, and come home to our truest essence.
In this way, the natal chart becomes a kind of cosmic map for decolonisation—pointing not to what we should be in the eyes of society, but what we already are beneath the layers of conditioning.
We do not need to invent new paradigms.
We need to remember, Kembali, the ones that already exist—in the roots of our languages, the pulse of the land beneath us, the songs of our grandmothers, and the stories written in the stars.
The Role of Ancestry and Spirit
I share this not as an expert, but as someone walking—slowly—towards deeper alignment.
Decolonising my life is not about rejecting all modern tools or technologies. It’s about reclaiming agency over which ones I choose to be in relationship with, and how I relate to them.
It’s about living in a way that feels sacred, not performative.
Sustainable, not extractive.
Relational, not transactional.
In Practice
On a practical level, this means:
Taking time away from the screen to be in presence with land, ceremony, and kin.
Refusing to rush responses or force productivity when I’m in a season of rest.
Creating and facilitating spaces that honour the body’s natural intelligence as a part and extension of Nature.
Learning from Indigenous voices and uplifting community-led work in your ancestral home that prioritises cultural preservation and environmental stewardship.
Letting my work not just be about income, but about right livelihood—in harmony with people, planet, and purpose.
A Prayer for All of Us
May we all remember:
We belong to the Earth, not the algorithm.
We are not machines. We are not brands. We are not data points.
We are rivers, forests, wombs, tears, laughter, soil, and soul.
May we slow down enough to hear what life is asking of us.
May we walk in humility and reverence.
May we decolonise not just our schedules, but the way in which we operate with our hearts.
With love,
Eva
I believe in the power of Regeneration.
A life lived in reciprocity with the intelligence and science of indigenous wisdom.
Lately, I have been fascinated and mesmerized by biology—by the deepening understanding of science, medicine, soil, and evolution. We are standing at the precipice of human extinction, or complete transformation into a world more vibrant than we could have ever imagined.
My day-to-day life feels like an unfolding discovery of the regenerative potential within humanity itself. I feel both the guide and the guided—humbled and blessed—because I, like many others, believe I’m part of the first generation to consciously walk this path of impacting evolution, taking small steps toward the beauty of a thriving world.
Every step that I’ve made towards peeling back the onion skin, peeling back the potential we have, I find more of myself. And it’s a brighter spark within me saying — “I can feel what I’m capable of. I haven’t done it yet, but I can feel what it will feel like when I step into that higher vibration. When I do something greater than myself. I can feel it for you. I can feel it for all of humanity. We could begin to do something different — something that’s never been done before. We could dream bigger, we could do bigger — and this time, in league with Nature.”
For the first time in the history of Homo sapiens, we are conscious of the possibility of our own extinction.
This is not a theory — it is a fact. It is the scientific, sobering truth of our times. Fertility rates are rapidly declining. Sickness, disease, and chronic conditions are rising from a root cause: a society disembodied from right relationship.
But if we choose to examine that root, to understand each human’s unique biological makeup and choose to return — Kembali — back to symbiosis and harmony…Then imagine the possibility of diversity within the one-body ecosystem of this planet.
Nature is a consciousness. Land is alive. The mother force within her is always generative, always adapting, always seeking more intelligence, more adaptability, and more biodiversity on this planet. If you were to become apart of that journey, can you imagine the garden of eden we would be in, in the next 200 years...
When we engineer ourselves out of our own extinction in the coming decades, it will be because we saw our role in nature differently than we ever have before.
Up until this point, we have been at war with her. We have been in conflict with nature — doing everything we can to engineer ourselves out of her systems for our own comfort, our own wealth. This hubris, this greed, can be broken — if we are willing to reconnect to the primal and benevolent life force and intelligence of nature… and from that reconnection, we can do something much greater. Like what Dr. Joe Dispenza says to me: “consciously make the choice to move from survival to creation..” What would a world look like if we all actively participated in a co-creative endeavor with Nature as our mother and guide?
It’s that desire — the maternal capacity to birth new life — that I now walk with.
When I am in my own internal process of separation from nature or truth, I ask:
Can I consciously override the societal and generational programming of lack, capitalism, colonialism…
And rewire myself back into kinship?
Back into the family I forgot was always there — the family that lives in abundance, generosity, reciprocity, and gratitude?
All expressions of Love. The essence of the Mother Nature herself.
And it’s with that desire for that maternal capacity to birth new life that I now walk in my life — with my clients, with my relationship to work, with my family, with the Balinese farmer who sits in a field with me to tell me stories of his relationship with nature, with elders by a campfire who share teachings of reciprocity and being in right relation, with the dolphins that I surf among, with the stranger I chat with in the line at the grocery store — imagining a thriving state of a regenerative world, and holding that possibility, that hope for mankind, that vision as my North Star.
My thoughts are as simple as this: If we have the power to make ourselves so sick, we have the power to make ourselves well, healthy, vibrant... There is no bypassing the unique journeys that brought us here, but on days like today, I remind myself to ground into this higher intelligence coming from beyond my conscious mind, inspired by the love the land and nature has for me, for all of us, that this possibility is a reality.
That we can heal. That we can thrive in every sense, in every realm of our existence.
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Infinite gratitude.
I would like to acknowledge the land that raised me, my anscestors and all the teachers that have shaped me into the woman I am able to be today.
To the teachers and resources who have joined and inspired me on this path — Thank you for walking beside me as I explore the science, the spirit, and the mystery of the human soul and it’s evolution:
Zach Bush, Tjok Gde Kerthyasa, Sedana Sadhana, Jeffrey Wolf Green, Steven Forrest, Charlotte Ivey, Luke Szabo, Octavio Salvado, Nikolas Keown-Robson, Ellen Arthur, Bill Mollison, David Holmgren, Djuca Terenzi, Ella Noah Bancroft, Maanee Chrystal Lynn Joy, Chris Skidmore, Kartika Alexandra, Ibu Jero Mangku, Maya Khuanne Crowder, Madison Setiawan, Stephanie Sargent, Shelley Towns, Chelsea Etienne, Nikki Heyder, Zahra Ciardi, Dr. Joe Dispenza, Daniel G. Amen — and so many others…
